Trust – small word, big concept.

As I have grown older my appreciation of the value of trust has magnified.  When I was younger, I was better able to believe that trust could be rebuilt after multiple breaches.  Over the years I have realized that multiple breaches after awhile are akin to breaches in a dike – one or two you can shore up by putting a finger over the hole, but too many holes begin to create structural weakness and no amount of fingers can shore it up after awhile.

I am not a fan of lies, although I realize that it is a facet of humankind. I am not a perfect person and I understand that sometimes folks lie and sometimes it just isn’t the end of the world; however, I have real difficulty having folks that lie repeatedly around me.  It all goes back to the value I place on integrity and owning one’s actions.  I cannot trust those who lie as they see fit to gain glory, to hide undesirable things, or to circumvent conflict.  To lie like this lacks integrity.

Trust is particularly fundamental for me in regard to those who are a integral part of my life.  Interestingly, I have found that historically it is to those closest to me that I am most likely to continually extend the hope that trust in a state of failure can be rebuilt.  Alas, historically I have also found that lies and promises broken are not an anomaly when they happen repeatedly over extended periods of time.

In my world, however imperfect it may be – trust is paramount.  Undeniably, this is a function of experience with  folks who were important in my life who were not trustworthy and who imprinted in my mind the vulnerability involved in living where trust was not a foundational element.  Alas, not all folks are on the same page as me and I don’t know why I am surprised about that as I should know better given my many years of life experience.

No worries – live and learn.  As Pink would say, "So what! I’m still a rock star…" – I refuse to change the things that are core to who I am…I own my life.

Day two hundred and forty of the new forty – obla di obla da

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