Yesterday marked my second month anniversary on this blog site. Today is day sixty-five of the new forty. Folks who know me are amazed that I find time to blog every day, but that was the gift I gave to myself in the beginning – the permission to do this one thing selfishly for me. Not that I am this selfless being who has lived decades without anything for herself. I do have the mid-life crisis car and other notable “from me to me” gifts; but, the gift of time is the one thing that I have not historically been good at allowing myself. So, I said I was going to do it and I have and I am damn proud of myself for sticking to my guns.
Many a day the practical side of me says there is no time for self-indulgence today, but then I remind myself that I deserve this time to myself each morning. I do get up quite early to ensure that I have it and it has become the way I organize my thoughts for the day. When I write I feed my soul – whether the topic is the great things about mid-life crises, being a parent, getting older, the Muffin Man or B.O.B. – it matters not the topic, it matters that I allow myself the small luxury of letting my voice emerge.
As a shy girl who now is not as outwardly shy as an adult, but still carries the deep remnants of shyness, there is a sense of bravado that comes with blogging and posting things for public display. This may be the bravest I have ever been. In my work with kids I have often used a quote that was delivered by Christopher Robin to Pooh (or more accurately written by A.A. Milne) to try and empower them that says, “You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” I have learned over time that those simple words are all quite true.
So today you may be hard-pressed to see the shy girl within this outwardly confident shell, but she is still there; and, today she is triumphing that she was braver than she believed and indeed more committed to the value of her voice than she has ever been.
I am diggin’ this new forty (even if I am still using my lingo from the seventies), it is a coming out party that has been long in the coming.
Day sixty-five of the new forty – obla di obla da
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THE NEW FORTY 
I like your topics and I’ve enjoyed your blog every day. If that shy girl tries to get out just drown her in some more coffee and keep blogging! 🙂
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You have always been one of my favorite friends and someone that I admire..shy or not. I loved the quote. I love that I can still keep in contact with you every day…even if it is just reading your blog. I miss our long phone calls, lunches, and pure fun (with a hint of evilness at times) we used to have! Thank you for being selfish enough to share your thoughts with all of your loyal readers….miss you =)
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Thank you ladies for your support – it is much appreciated! xo
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